I think I enjoy writing long entries on tumblr just because I have so much to say but really, no one to actually say it to. It’s not like I want everyone and anyone to know my business, but it’s nice to know my thoughts are no longer trapped in a sad corner of my troubled mind.
I’m currently reflecting about my high school career and all the memories I’ll solemnly, but happily carry along with me for the rest of my life. I can only imagine how difficult it’ll be for our valedictorian to write about a speech about our first step into kindergarten and our last step out of high school.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that right now, I’m questioning whether I accomplished anything at all during these past few years… and if I did, why doesn’t it feel like I have? Why don’t I feel a lift of glory behind my smile? Maybe it’s because I wasn’t awarded anything or recognized for all the hard work I put into high school… or maybe it’s because I never enjoyed myself completely. I had my share of laughs and good times, but I know I won’t be one of those people who will say high school was the best time of my life. However, despite my insecurities, I’m not sure I want to feel any different than I do now. High school was tough and I do feel I deserve much more credit than what I’m getting for all that I’ve done, but I’ve grown to live a simple life with just love and laughter… and without the pressure of being perfect, in the spotlight, the center of attention, the complications of drama, those catty girls, and utter douche bags.
Life was, is, and will be good no matter how I look at it.
2 WEEKS UNTIL GRADUATION!